What on earth did Jesus mean by saying: “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink, nor about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them.”
… or what the heck is the point of the old zen saying: “Sit quietly, doing nothing, spring comes, and the grass grows by itself.”
Do they really imply what it looks like? That we should sit down and do nothing and in some magical way everything would be done for us?
Today I have been in a bit of a struggle with my self. The mind divided in two parts fighting each other. One part saying I should work, be disciplined, sit down and write a work text I find totally meaningless, do my working hours so I get my salary and do what people expect of me. The other part is drawn to what I love, an expression of heart and beauty, in harmony with the flow of life but with an uncertain economical future.
Somehow the old film title “The Unbearable Lightness of Being” came to me while dancing the frustration out some hour go. That life is actually asking so little that it is almost scary. Nothing could be easier than to live and it is already happening perfectly well without a me doing it. It is all taken care of. Not by some heavenly father or mystical force. Simply life unfolding it self as it always have. So why complicate it? Why does the human mind seam to fear the lightness of being to the point that it is almost neurotic about it? Have to do, must plan, have to succeed, must do this, must do that, why all this worry and busyness? Why this idea about somehow doing life when it is already being done. After all life has been evolving pretty well for the last 13 billion years or so, without a me, imagine that! I mean, all the stars and solar systems, galaxies, plants, animals, and now lately thinking humans, the whole shebang. Amazing, and it is all done by itself! So why worry in the first place?
Deep down it is so subtle. This switch from doing to being but it makes all the difference in the world. Being life instead of trying to do it. To let go of that struggle is such an ease and there is no longer a fight between what actually is and how it should be. There is simply this, weather we call it life or something else, the spring comes and the grass grows by it self … until next time I forget ;)
– Richard –