December 5, 2011

A Tantric experience of Sound. ¹

by Mette • Okategoriserade

How unexpected!

I have had no real connection with sound before. Sound was very often too much, annoying, disturbing, unpleasant, — or of course, very pleasant for a while, as for everybody else, music can make me feel good, or give other emotional reactions. I love dancing. I know of and have even tried sound healing. But this time sound was so very different.

We were heading out to look for new speakers for our group- and Temple rooms.  I went along, for a nice trip to town, Christmas shopping, etc. I was not sure of whether we would bring any speakers with us home. I did not expect this to happen as it did. I expected in fact nothing.

We listened and listened. To one, two, three, four, five different speakers with or without sub woof.  I started to understand something about sound. They were all Ok, in different ways.  Not easy to choose!

Then, in another room were some other speakers. Not of those “elegantly fitting the room” kind of speakers, but Solid, Black. The sales man placed the CD, the same song came out. Something I’ve never experienced with sound before started to happen. I had to turn away, embarrassed. Trying to stop the reaction. No use. I was cut open. Tears running down my cheeks. Not possible to hide, I did no longer want to either. I could not. The whole body reacted and I got so warm! Off with the scarf. Off with the coat. Off with the inner scarf, off with the jacked. Every cell of my body reacted. The sound made me tremble inside, feeling so vulnerable and so alive. So deeply moved. No resistance left. By that time I knew, this was The Loud Speakers! They were talking directly to my body. A special frequency hitting, cutting open, going straight to my heart.

I did not care about the cost, I thought they might be very expensive, but what the hell… I didn’t care.  It was in fact the other way around, they were the cheapest solution of what we had listened to and looked at as solutions! Oh, what a lucky day!

We paid and walked out. I tried to talk about this to Richard, very difficult as tears run down my cheeks once again just by opening up to this.  So he talked and I listened. To ideas of speakers “talking to the mind” and speakers “talking to the body”. I had never known! Now the body knows, now I know.

And the ball continued at home. No dinner yet! No way! Connecting speakers to amplifier. MORE MUSIC! Oh lord! - what a world of sound! First carefully… same reaction when a certain frequency hits me. A certain base. Tears again. Heat again. Then, louder and louder. Dancing! Vibrating!  I was pulsating with sound!

I could no longer tell the difference between me and the sound, the sound out there and the sound in here. Being sound!

Turned it to its max. Silence in the sound. “… like a virgin”… I cried, like a virgin freshly opened to love.  I felt the house vibrating, the floor, the heavy brick walls. The roof.  I was one with the house. I just knew, the house was happy! Alive with sound! The sound filled all three floors. It must have sipped into all the corners, the dead zones.  Next day the upper floor that have felt a bit “dead” had gained life! We could actually feel it.

Well– night came, and Making Love came.  Mmmm— what a joy! The energy was … wow… the sound coming from this body was så much richer, so much deeper, with no emotions attached, just pure bodily sound! How wonderful! Richard said in the morning, making love was like making love with another woman, with rounder hips! The energy in the body is so very female, feels like a “growing into something”, a bodily womanhood.

Meditating this morning I heard new sounds, deeper base levels coming through, and the vibration from the speakers and my out breath hit the same level, or frequency, pulsating, vibrating together.

What a joyous feeling!

I’ve found “my sound”,

I’ve found my OHM.

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