June 20, 2011

a love letter ³

by Mette • Okategoriserade

I suddenly feel like telling. Again it is just an ordinary, daily life insight, but of importance to me. Once again I glance into the posts on this blog, this time the one about “the ancient female way “and Richards blog post “The sacred marriage”. Nothing wrong with any of them, but they state different ways of experiencing, of seeing and interpreting.

And this is what I love!

For the first time in my life I am in a relationship where I do not feel that I have to be in any particular way to please or to fit in or to feel safe. I can state my views openly and it may or may not correlate with his ideas or experiences. Very often they do, but sometimes they don´t, they may even create some provocation.  And it occurs to me that for the first time in life I am perfectly fine with that!

To me it is a miracle, to you it may be quite ordinary, or even ridiculous to even think about as a subject of matter. Having spent most of my years trying to fit in, to please, to make as little rattle as possible, then seeing this new way, this new strength and confidence happening, makes me filled with gratitude.

Gratitude towards my self who has embarked on this journey of life of authenticity, but most of all, for being in a relationship with a man who creates a space safe enough for me to express the different parts of my self without fear.

To Richard:

You Rock!

You are the waves rocking my boat. Sometimes so high that it cracks open.

You are the solid rock onto which I can tie the rope of belonging and find rest.

With you I walk the deepest valleys and climb the highest tops.

With you music is created in my heart.

You Rock!

… I can reverse this and say; I Rock!

Now, how does that feel?

GREAT! Because I know this is true too.

In you I see my self.

-m-